Minding my business of minding another's !!

Yeah - life full of paradox and sometimes i like it !!
I d love to mind my own business but .. before i mind mine i would love to do full fledged business analysis and business consulting and offering the most tempting solutions for all business propositions and business paradoxes :-)
To me this looks very interesting right now - solving (business) problems .. .. ..
madness to solve all hurdles and give crazy good unassumingly simple and profitable solutions ..
but baby i think i need to grow and grow more .. .. .. to do all this stuff and eventually enable firms to do it themselves ! :-) like Eli

Appetite for Self IMPortance

hey it's (y)early mo(u)rning and im up strongly "Wanting " something from myself /from my life..
a want , a big want
to be "DOING" something kick ass;
totally kick ass -
staying turned on , and tuned into life / reality prime time 24X7.
That thrill - that adrenalin rush and that sense of responsibility
like being a part of the rescue team in movie armageddon - i want that kind of self inportance/ sense of purpose/duty of saving the earth etc. .
My appetite for challenge right now looks immense to me . . and i feel like living/dying only on challenges and not bothering a bit on routine -
Yup, my melodramatic sense of greed for purpose/ hunger for sense of upliftment and great desire for total fulfillment is ready to take me anywhere - break any walls and take any blind risks - i just need to feel that immense passion and justice to drive me to do stuff i.e life changing - Mind Blowing
would 'nt mind being at kargil war like situtation- want to live short but Filled with Life !! !! !! such that each minute is L.I.V.E.D.
im writing/thinking all this coz im bored n i think i'm pathetic coz i dont choose to live every day at my personal best - i think i need a mission to take the best out of me :P
Anyway , hope self-introspection gives me a way .. Yeah and that is if im quiet enuff to turn my mind within (very naughty !! these days)

It all "seems" like this ..

Heyeh ! a rainy morning .. ..

Needed to jot this down ..and no better place than an online journal :P

Wow sometimes it all looks like what lies beneath it all is => perception .
The way stuff /world is percieved seems to Change the very bloody truth of my existence , seems to change life - more than that life can very much look topsyturvy if you change the lens .
Digitized perception donno what a great way of seeing things is ..
Dont know if Truth IS .. !!! ??
and if thruth is ..
and is beyond my minds/perception :-) Funny when will i get to know this and rather HOW can i KNOW this NOW

what is it that i see when i see and how i see what i see and why i see and what is beyond my see that i dont see and what can change the range of my see and
if i can choose to see what i like to see
then i would love to see simplicity :-) giggles

Another thing, what i see and what you see will be different like 2 sets Set A and Set B , they may overlap n they may not overlap and the extents of overlap may also vary .
And this makes me feel that world is such manipulated content !! oops
makes me opine this to be a sort of fools story and where will be the truth found .What the hell is conscience#
Is there any phenomena/funda of cosmic conscience or truth .. makes me wonder what am i doing ..Looks like im playing in a -maze without the top view and looks like chaos - a lot sometimes :-) cant stop smiling either -all this is soooo very funny and i cant seem to understand one bit of this JoKe :-@